Personal Dream: Becoming Spider Gwen from Spider-Verse

Rare blog update! I was never one for super hero movies, but I finally saw  Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse and loved it. I wanted to try having a dream with Spider-Man style powers and becoming Gwen from the movie seemed like a fun way to go about that. This dream wasn't a request, just one I did in one of my lucid dreams, but it was a lot of fun and figured it would be a good way to update the blog. It's also a rare dream where I became an animated character, where nearly every other dream that involves me becoming someone else is me becoming another real person.

For reference, if you're reading this and haven't seen the movie, when I talk about her school outfit it's referring to this one: https://pbs.twimg.com/media/DuqMuIPWwAEr9Iv.jpg 

in the dream she was wearing a skirt like the girl in the background but also had leggings under it. I don't recall if the leggings part were in the movie but was definitely in the dream. The Spider outfit looks like this in the movie: https://www.syfy.com/sites/syfy/files/styles/1200x1200/public/2018/07/spider-man_into_the_spider-verse.jpg?itok=2x3qSEFe&timestamp=1532139437 

It might read a bit shorter than it was since a good chunk of near the end was me just swinging around, and there's not a ton I can write for that except how amazing and thrilling it was. I could do it in every dream for weeks and not get bored. Also I know almost nothing about Spider people beyond what was in the movie so the stuff my dream created for how powers or any of that work might be completely wrong. Hope you enjoy! 

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I attempted MILD at 7:00 after getting up to get some water. I fell asleep pretty fast despite worrying I might just lay awake until I had to get up for work. I found myself in a dream where I was at this volcano tourist attraction mixed with a off limits research lab. I was with people I knew and moving through some crowd dividers that would be used to form a queue. I reached the main area and all the floor was porous volcanic rock. Very red look to everything. In the distance I could see the big, main part of the volcano with lava running down it. The area I was in was very warm but not dangerously so. There were chunks of rock everywhere, about chest high on me and half melted. Supposedly no one was supposed to touch them except researchers. I touched one and it felt oddly mushy. The texture of the rock got me lucid and I reality checked and ran through my stabilization, which involved pretty much smelling, licking and staring at the rock as well as slapping it to make noise and feel the rock under my hand. 

After stabilizing I was quite excited to try becoming Spider Gwen, though also nervous as I usually am about being in another person’s body. I stared at one of the holes in the volcanic rock and a cartoony looking spider came crawling out, it looked kinda like the spider from the movie but much more pink and there was a flowery smell that wasn’t strong, but somehow overpowered the previous sulfuric smell. I assumed it was supposed to be a Spider Gwen scent. Letting it bite me did not seem like an enjoyable experience, and I hesitated for a decent chunk of time but knew it wouldn’t hurt, and I had to do it if I wanted to become her (trying to force a different method of becoming her seemed like a bad idea). 

I let it crawl on me and it had a very weird feeling, a very faint warm and tingle from it that projected down into the skin it was touching. I felt a slight pinch and couldn’t help the reflex of shaking off my hand after but I knew it had done its job. I was a bit skeeved out by it, i’m not a big fan of spiders, but I could feel warmth travelling through my body as it replaced my DNA with Gwen’s. At the same time as that happened I noticed the world around me was starting to dissolve, everything I could see had gained lines like it was a bunch of panels that formed an image together. They started to vanish and it looked like a lot like one of the scenes in The Good Place where the world vanishes (I had watched that episode the day of this dream so it was clearly taken from it.) I felt my body starting to change significantly. I looked down at my hands and they looked animated, I couldn’t tell if they were in the style from the movie but the hands were very clearly feminine with fingers that felt distinctly longer and more slender even though my hand was smaller overall. Gwen’s hands.

The dream jumped here and I didn’t lose lucidity, and it was vivid enough that I know it’s not a gap in my recall, the dream just shifted. I was no longer in the volcano area and now I was in what looked like a school. Visually it was incredibly confusing for a moment. It felt like I had no perception of depth, which is an alarming feeling. The world may as well have been me pressing my face against a screen. But as my eyes or brain adjusted, I could see it had just as much depth as the real world, and then everything made sense and looked right. It looked exactly like the school from the film, just I was standing in it and could understand the spatial and 3d aspects of it now in a way that I couldn’t on the 2d screen. Also, with how weird my body felt, I was also now definitely Gwen. Her body felt incredibly odd. It was obviously a woman’s body and had all the parts that it should, I got that instant and intimate understanding of Gwen’s body that comes with becoming someone else, but I could feel from her body’s proportions that I was the version of her from the movie, and not a real version of her. Not impossible proportions, just… I could feel it was her body from the movie and not a waking life version of her. It wasn’t fake though. I could feel that her biology was accurate despite her body being animated, all the major body parts were there and I could even feel more subtle stuff like that I was slightly hungry, so Gwen’s body would have had to have a digestive system.

A ton of small sensations from her body gave away that I was definitely her. I could feel a very subtle pressure on her right eyebrow where her piercing is. I could see Gwen’s very distinctly blonde and wavy hair intruding slightly into the left side of my vision. The shape of her body that was relayed to my mind lined up with what I recall seeing in the film, I could feel the small-ish breasts, slender but distinct hips, athletic butt, and looking down confirmed it. Looking down I saw Gwen’s breasts pushing out the brown school outfit top with a tie at the top, a very clearly female body with leggings and a skirt, both were quite comfortable but also emphasized that I was very obviously her and female. Despite how physically small I felt as her, it was a really cool contrast that I also felt really strong. I could feel how slender her arms are, but I didn’t have the tranquilized feeling of having lost a lot of strength like would have come with being a woman, especially one with her slim physique. I felt even stronger than normal, which was so crazy when everything Gwen’s eyes and senses told me about her body would have been the opposite, her body felt so lithe, but incredibly powerful from muscles that weren’t visible. 

I used her tongue to probe her teeth and felt the small gap between her front teeth. I investigated a little more and ran Gwen’s hands over my face, noting the differences, especially curious since I couldn’t remember the last time I was a animated character. Gwen’s skin was warm and felt like flesh, but it felt really ‘clean’. It had an almost synthetic skin feel to it because it felt like it had no oil or flaws of any type to it, like she had just washed her face an instant ago. Everyone i’ve been ranges in that aspect, but at the least they usually have some natural skin oil to them. Gwen’s face also felt weird in both sensation and under my hands. I knew I had her face, and anyone else would see it, but the features had a slight cartoony/exaggerated feel to them that, in my mind, made me think my face would be incredibly fucked up if not nightmarish, but it’s because i’m so unused to having the face of an animated character. In reality those exaggerated-feeling features and tiny feeling facial structure is just how her pretty, cartoon face feels to possess. I also noticed that in the span of feeling up Gwen’s body, it had changed. The hair on the left side of her head was now slightly heavier as her hair style had changed to the buzzed version from after Miles accidentally yanks some out. I gingerly touched the area and felt the stubble of Gwen’s shaved head, noting the weirdness of getting to feel up a stranger’s hair and scalp. I shook my head a little and felt how her hair swung and flopped around. It was a hairstyle I could never have in real life so it was exciting to get to have it in the dream. The hair felt interesting. It felt like real hair, it was thin strands but quite a lot of it, but the strands all stayed together. Trying to pick out an individual strand of Gwen’s hair from the tresses hanging near the left side of my vision was a hard task, they felt almost magnetized to each other and it kept slipping out of my fingers. I eventually managed and it just looked like a wavy blonde hair, I could see very very slight darkening near the top where it would darken to brown at the roots but it was outside of my vision range, I would have to confirm in a mirror. When I let the strand go it returned to the wavy mass of Gwen’s hair that was tickling my face.

I had ignored that other students were standing around, though I had noted them a bit. I was kinda embarrassed that I was just standing there focusing on Gwen’s body, but to them I probably just looked focused, and I was making a fitting expression with her face for that. It was a little uncomfortable to be standing around in her school clothes, not used to standing in a skirt and having air move around down there. I didn’t see anything interesting around me. I thought it would be fun to interact with people as Gwen and see how it’d be different, but using her spider powers would be more fun. I didn’t see Miles so I closed my eyes and spun, willing myself to be on top of a building like it showed her near the end of the movie. I could feel her skirt swish around her legs as I spun, a sensation I focused on as I threw my intent to the new location.

I opened my eyes and the blonde wavy hair in my vision was a fun and easy anchor to recognize I was still Gwen. I was now on top of a building and felt my heart racing, I could see across the skyline and see way below me the streets of a city, little cars moving on the roads. Gwen’s vision was better than I expected, able to see detail on the cars at a distance a normal human couldn’t. I couldn’t tell if it was just due to everything being animated though. The entire city looked like it was from the film, but with that same feeling that I now could see the spatial and 3d aspects of it that a screen couldn’t convey. The air on my skin was cool but I was now in Gwen’s spider suit, and despite how thin and form hugging it felt it was also warm, it felt like she was wearing leggings across her entire body. It also emphasized some parts that her previous clothes hadn’t, the form fitting material drew attention to the slender, athletic curves of her body I now inhabited. I ran a hand across her butt and it was soft but muscular in a way that was clearly from being in great shape. I ran my hands down her torso and hips just feeling and enjoying the experience of being in a body that was so real feeling but also clearly not one a human in waking life could have. I was too interested in playing with her body’s powers to explore her form much, but I did give the breasts on my chest a grab to see what they were like. They felt sensitive and firm, much like her face and ass it felt like a normal human’s body to my senses, but to my eyes was the body of an animated character. Similar experience for the different equipment I could feel between my legs. I sat and touched down there a little bit and could feel the details with my hands that I had been able to sense between my legs, but I didn’t want to sit there and explore Gwen’s body this time. Gwen’s butt also provides a nice cushion albeit a small one, her body not carrying around much in the way of extra padding. 

I stood and noticed that in this costume there were weird things built into the hands of the costume, they were rings on my fingers that had what seemed like small robes leading from them to the center of my palm and it was just a flat, white surface. I thrust out Gwen’s hand and web shot from it and hit a pipe across the street and I felt a jerk as it seemed to stick to it and lock on. The feeling of web coming out was a very strange feeling, a slight pull from inside my hands and body, it reminded me of the bizarre feeling of when I had a tube removed years ago after appendix surgery, the feeling of something moving internally. I slightly flexed her forearm and the web detached. I looked around before I jumped off and saw there was a glass roof near me and I moved over to it, wanting to see my reflection since I hadn’t had a chance to. I saw Gwen’s face reflected back at me, slightly distorted by the glass. It was a really surreal moment to not only see someone else’s face staring back at me, but to have that face be an animated character. I blinked her blue eyes a few times and was amazed at her face. I made a few expressions and noticed that they were her expressions like from the movie, were with real people it’s my expressions on their face. I made facial expressions like her which was odd and gave me a bit of an existential crisis since I couldn’t see any of myself in her. Smiling also made me aware of the teeth gap again and I started to probe it with her tongue again. I tore myself away and went to the edge of the building.

I shot it at the corner of the same building and jumped off and started yelling in excitement as I did, hearing that it came out in Gwen’s voice from the movie. I felt my stomach drop and lurch slightly as I was in freefall for a moment before the web started swinging me, and then I flex to release it and shot again. The wind was running through the hair i’d gotten from her, and was cold against the exposed part of my shaved scalp. Gwen’s body felt so light and nimble even on its own, feeling myself swinging around made the feeling so much stronger, I may as well have been weightless. 

I started off just using one of her arms, and I stayed in between the two buildings I started at. My heart was racing nearly the entire time since I could look down and just see the street hundreds of feet below and I could feel the wind against my exposed skin. Every time I swung I could feel the different parts of her flesh move in an unfamiliar way, the physics of her boobs and hips not a normal sensation for me, the slight shift of their mass and how they tugged on her body when momentum shifted and transferred kinetic to potential energy, but it wasn’t a problem nor was her different center of gravity. I eventually managed to get to using both arms and realized that swinging is actually pretty hard. I think I eventually let the dream start to fudge it a little since I stopped figuring out precisely where I had to aim and would just thrust Gwen’s arm in a direction and let the web attach to whatever it wanted. I got into a good flow and started to get around the city, laughing with joy with her voice, almost not realizing it was me doing it a few times as I didn’t recognize the girl’s voice as mine. Feeling myself fly through the air, the rhythmic stomach drop and tug of gravity on my flesh before I go arcing back up was fun and exhilarating beyond words. It reminded me of the first time I flew. Doing it all inside Gwen’s lithe body only made it more enjoyable since I felt like I could maneuver her body into whatever I needed it to do, it being so nimble and light feeling made me feel in constant control, never like the momentum got away from me. Having her hair stay perfectly styled through it all was really nice, since otherwise it would have been whipping me in the face with all the air. 

I swung around the city more and just loved the feeling of doing so and how amazing it all was. I eventually landed on another rooftop after going lower and getting closer to cars. I never got lower than like 10 feet above them, I was too nervous to go lower, but I was feeling more daring and comfortable with Gwen’s body and powers. I also wanted to try fighting something since it would be really different with her form. I forced myself to wake up there since I knew I was really far into the dream and I wanted to write it all down.